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~ I'll climb to the lookout tower and scan the horizon.
I'll wait to see what God says ~ Habakkuk 2:1-2

May 6, 2010

Mama's ~ Pä·thakh' ~ had come

“And the Lord replied, ‘I am Jesus, the one you are persecuting.
Now get to your feet! For I have appeared to you to appoint you as my servant and witness. You are to tell the world what you have seen and what I will show you in the future. And I will rescue you from both your own people and the Gentiles. Yes, I am sending you to the Gentiles to open their eyes, so they may turn from darkness to light and from the power of Satan to God. Then they will receive forgiveness for their sins and be given a place among God’s people, who are set apart by faith in me.’ Acts 26: 15- 18

A year ago, this Mother's Day, I was in Kansas finishing up 2 months of preparing Mom & Dad's house for sale. (To read my 1st post about this day go HERE ) I had taken family leave from my job in CO to do so. Dad was in Assisted Living at that time. Mom had passed into Heaven 7 years earlier....

They celebrated their 55th wedding anniversary in the hospital - the day before she passed. She had been in a coma for 3 weeks. My sister decorated her room just as if mama could witness it...

On the day before their anniversary,
my pastor in CO spoke the word ...


...which is the Hebrew word for OPEN. He was speaking about opening our eyes to see God's TRUTH, and turn from darkness to light. (Acts 26:18)

That word was a prophetic word to me. It pounded its way into my spirit...and a powerful force rose up inside. I recognized it as the activity of the Holy Spirit - nudging me to ask for FAVOR on mama & daddy's 55th anniversary!

It was as if my spirit knew that she would not live to witness another anniversary. So for 3 continuous hours, that morning after church - seperated by 800 miles - I fervently interceded for the heavenly Father to allow mama to open her eyes to see Daddy... on their anniversary.

I cried pä·thakh' over and over...and over.

"pä·thakh' ...pä·thakh' ! Open your eyes, mama...pä·thakh'".

3 hours later, it came to me. PEACE...
I felt a release... and then I relaxed in God's Mercy and Grace.

It wasn't until the day after, on the day of their anniversary - 1 day before her passing from this earth ...into heaven's GLORY - that the witness of her pä·thakh' had indeed come. Dad and my sister shared how mom had opened her eyes, for just a brief moment. Searchingly, she moved her eyes from Dad to my sister and back again. Dad reported that her eyes shone with such clarity and were the brightest blue that he'd ever seen! I've found myself wondering if she was also looking for me. Could she have heard my voice in the spirit realm pleading pä·thakh'?.... I choose to Believe. I choose to believe that our great big God carried my voice on spirit wings right to the very heart of my Mother - for such a time as this. I choose to believe that God is that personal with me. That He is concerned about everything that concerns ME....that He is the connector between hearts that seek to serve Him. Someday, I'll share the story of how God allowed her to hear my voice and respond... 2 weeks earlier to this - from her bedside - still in a coma . Miracles come to those who are expecting them. Miracles come sometimes, without being noticed...we must have a heart of 'watchfulness'...there are miraculous happenings around us. God is ever present... in the midst of us - if we just choose to SEE - I choose to SEE.

Mother's Day last year - the last day I was in their house - mama's yellow iris bloomed! It was the prettiest site my famished heart had seen in a very long time. I cried! I stood at mama's kitchen window as the tears of JOY just rolled down my cheeks. it was indescribably...serene.

This "knowing moment" came over me...she too had stood at this same window season after season - looking out upon the 'first light' of summer.

Gone... but never forgotten. Lonely...but never alone.

It was in this precise moment, that I knew that I was to un-earth this 'first light' that God had given me, as a 'thank you' from mama.

Early the following morning - before leaving their home for the last time - I stood in the rain, carefully excavating mama's 'first light'.... tear stained moments of grief, praise and prayer mixed and melted with the saturated soil beneath my feet.

Mama's 'first light' was representation of the Light of God's Glory on this ending of an era...
The beginning of a new generation had come.

Today, mama's Iris stand straight and tall in my garden! That clump of 'first light' now graces my place with the remembrance of mama and our God that made it so.

The 'first light' of this season came on May 1st. I can't even begin to describe the JOY that filled my soul - when peering through my kitchen window - these eyes fell witness to His gift of Glory! ...I won't even try.

Mama's pä·thakh' had come! Again !!

I took 40 pictures of those 1st two blooms! ..before and after the rain. (with just my cell phone camera - my only camera!) And wouldn't you know...God reminded me that it rained the morning I dug them up from mama's garden... too. It was like a kiss from God - that gentle refreshing touch of rain. Reminds me of one of mama's favorite old hymns..."Showers of Blessings".

I am one blessed daughter!

And....I'm the daughter of the Most High King...who showers me with blessings, in season and out of season.

pä·thakh' פָּתַח

Open my eyes, that I may see
glimpses of truth thou hast for me;
place in my hands the wonderful key
that shall unclasp and set me free.
Silently now I wait for thee,
ready, my God, thy will to see.
Open my eyes, illumine me, Spirit divine!

Open my ears, that I may hear
voices of truth thou sendest clear;
and while the wave notes fall on my ear,
everything false will disappear.
Silently now I wait for thee,
ready, my God, thy will to see.
Open my ears, illumine me, Spirit divine!

Open my mouth, and let me bear
gladly the warm truth everywhere;
open my heart and let me prepare
love with thy children thus to share.
Silently now I wait for thee,
ready, my God, thy will to see.
Open my heart, illumine me, Spirit divine!
Text & Music by Clara H. Scott, 1841-1897

Thank you, Lord for saving my soul, thank you for healing my relationship with my mama. Thank you raising her up out of the dance hall that she grew up in - to be daddy's helper in ministry. Thank you for giving her the gift of music - for all the times we stood around her piano as a family - singing those favorite hymns that forever rise within me... I am blessed beyond measure - to have been raised in a christian home. Thank you for choosing my parents for me. I am most grateful. I am who I am today, because of that christian influence as a child. I praise you and I worship you, my one and only JESUS! Please give mama a big hug from me today. I love her more now than I ever knew possible. Thank you for my pä·thakh' eyes - to see her as you made her to be - a strong tower. She was a tower of strength. May you teach me, O Lord to live in that strength ...through you. Thanks for receiving my mama into heaven...tell her that I love her and I'll see her soon. thank you, Jesus, for caring about everything that concerns me...Amen

Mama @ 8 years old
My heart is full of gratefulness to my then interim pastor - Jerry Johnson - Thank you pastor Jerry - for your wisdom and obedience to be used of God - for His powerful ministry in and among His people. May God continue to bless you and your family as you minister to God's family.

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